Saturday, October 18, 2008

Cinderela’s story: A story of finding the right shoes.

Well, as not like other Indonesians (again… I am not like any other Indonesians) and my friends who can easily buy their stuffs and things in common stores, I have a slightly different size (to who know my size hehehehhe keep quite please…..) and from the beginning of my new trisemester I just realized that I do not have any shoes that can fit properly for my graduation…..C’mon..should I wear my dress with my sport shoes or my slipper? Hihihih that’s my first thought.

Then, I made a complaint to my friends and they replied it by said you are lucky in Australia now, find the shoes with your size…(ehem special size actually). So…the hunt for the right shoes was started…..but it is not easy like everyone said…many stores I entered and no size of mine! together with my friend we hunted the shoes but we were looking for definitely contrary necessity…..that makes the shopkeepers got headache hihihih….. If I saw a right size shoes, whether the colour or the price was not right….or the other side….but never expect too much…almost gave up.

Finally, the search ended up when last week I found my shoes and just near to my place……even I considered it still quite expensive if I converted into my currency (always…..cheap taste…hihihih) because I bought two pairs, one for official events and one for casual one. And those were not the end of my shopping shoes, since the store is so close to my place, there is a possibility I can shop more……just everyone else to do…..(justification…..)

Confession from deep inside of my heart

When I saw the picture, I am surprised that you are not changed so much…I still can recognize you and suddenly all the memories came back and I cannot help my self to smile and laugh if I remembered at that time (while in back…song ‘heart of mine ‘by Bobby Caldwell played…).

People will say that I put too much on my expectation if I told this situation but I did it in purposes because I believe that this is only dream that never come true and I used it to encourage my self at least at the same level of your achievements. You are too good to be truth but I needed that. You were the reason I woke up early and eased my laziness if I felt reluctant to go for my lecture.

Believe it or not, you are one of many role models that I have. I planned myself to become just like you……fluent in English, graduated from advanced level of our internal institution, had a professional degree and title, strong and charismatic personality and combined with a bit of arrogant and high self confident while still in good looking and charming.

Wow…fifth ten years ago and how times flied so fast……..hihihihi..it seems I fall in again….


PS: dedicated to him and please my best friends who knew this story….stop laughing.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

My Motto: Conquer yourself, Do not expect too much, Expect for nothing but be grateful for whatever you received it.

You must be wondering how come I can define and put a quite long quote for my motto of life and the reason why, but those are what I got from my experiences. No kidding. Those motto made me who am I now. Some people said I am too independent, highly self confidence and maybe some people thought that I am quite arrogant by stating that. But I am telling you, it is not easy to have enough confidence and independent, always look at positive side and optimistic but at the same time must put your self in other people position, humble, caring for other, not materialistic and comprehend other and also not judging others and always open minded.

First, conquer yourself means that you can do anything, there are no limitation of that but sometimes you (or in this case, myself) always make reasons not to do that actually can do. It also teaches you to comprehend and understanding more about yourself and found the way to reduce or erase the obstacles that come from inside you (or me) like if you always delay your tasks, you know you will involve in trouble if the due date come and maybe in order to conquer yourself, you (or me) will make schedule, try to finish the tasks a little by a little, make a preparation and hopefully the tasks will be finished on time. Furthermore, the motto gave me encourage to try everything (in positive things) and nothing wrong to try accept that you will gain your skills and experiences and trust me: practice makes perfect.

Second, do not expect too much, hmmm what can I say? This motto is really really helping me a lot to cover the reality. I never have so big difficulties. Life is sooo easy for me and I try to make as an easiest way to get the solution over my problems. Thank God, I think I am far from stressed and as a return, you will face the life more easily and hopefully life will give you back its kindness. The last motto is be grateful and that is not easy to do. We (read: me) are humans and like to make comparison with each other as a result you feel deficiencies for everything. I did that sometimes, but then I started to counting my lucks and kindness from God…(wow I got so many…) and then I feel safe and comfortable with what I have now.

Learning from your own experience is the best teacher that the adage said but for me, the bad or even the worse experiences should not be experienced by yourself, you can learn those from others and hope you never have those same situations. Being an observer to other people and trying to understand what the reasons behind others’ actions are my favorites. There are so many people that we can learn from them, put the bad ones and take the positive one. Never underestimate other people and take attention to common people and low ranks in the organization because we can learn more from them and they are sometime more welcome than higher ranks people or important people (of course..).

Well, hopefully my sharing can help others and tell you the reason why I became what I am now.